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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

ASEAN FOOTBALL FEVER

Yaye! I finally got the tickets to Asean Football Championship Final - 1st leg!

I'm ecstatic! I mean i grew up watching soccer. I love the game.

I follow the EPL, Champions League, Euro Cup, World Cup, etc.

Oh and of course, S-league. heh.

Ina and I actually went to get the tickets yesterday but we were late.
The ticket booth was already closed. And we were only 5 minutes late!
Our heart sanked when we saw the words 'SOLD OUT'.
It was actually the Grandstand and Gallery Children

tickets that were sold out.
They still have the Gallery Adult tickets, which was what we wanted.
So that was a relief.

There were some guys who wanted to get the tickets too.

But obviously they were too late.
They asked the 2 police officers, who were at the gate,

when can they get the tickets.
The police officers replied that they could get it tomorrow

between 12pm - 7pm.
Then those guys turned to us and said

"Ohhh..besok kul 12 ehh." I just smiled.
At this point, Ina was making a fuss about waking up early tomorrow.
And one of the guys said

"Saya bleh bangun pagi. Kasi jer number, saya bleh kejut kan."
Obviously, we ignored them.

They waved us goodbye and then they were gone.

So today, Ina and I met outside the stadium at 11.45 am.
I reached first and to my horror, there were already a LOT of people.
All kinds of people. Office people, polytechnic students, ite students, aunties and uncles, even actors!
The queue was so freaking loooooong. But we managed to get our tickets! And that's all that mattered. :))

I didn't jog this morning as i was feeling a little under the weather.
My throat hurts like crazy. And i think i'm down with a flu.

Ugh. I hate getting sick.
I just ate my medicine and i really hope i get better by tomorrow.
Oh please god please. I wanna look really good tomorrow. Why you ask?
Because there are boyssss! HAHA.

Besides, we're going with a bunch of boysss ourselves.
We're going with Rizal, Charlie and his cute friends && Daniel,

Fiza's hot tattooed friend.
So basically me, Ina and Fiza are the only girls.
It's like we're having a boy fest of our own. :))

Talking about boy fest, Ina and I can't wait about the boy fest on the field itself.

t-t-t-t-t-tasty, tasty.

I'm so stoked for tomorrow. I'm all amped up.

love,
Nadia.

I ain't easy, I ain't sleazy
I got reasons why I tease 'em
Boys just come and go like seasons.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Forget about people.

Now i only care about me, myself and i.

I thank GOD that i have a WONDERFUL FAMILY

and a few TRUE FRIENDS.

Thats all i want in my life right now

and nothing else.

As long as i have my family and true friends

with me, i am the happiest girl in the world!

and i am happy right now!

hugs and kisses,

Lina.

i do miss those days, i do.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Monday, January 29, 2007

MY WEEKEND!!!

Its been quite sometime i took train alone towards town only after 8 plus at night ,so all i could do was to look at people, their dressing and behaviors. And it made me thinking and worrying about my youngest sister who is still in the midst of growing up, teenage years...I have been there once and i always pray that she becomes a better daughter than me...influences and experimenting are part of the teenage life...so i think its just instinctive for me as the eldest daughter to worry about her...

As usual, i am always the one waiting for him. I didnt know where we're heading, and so i just followed and met one of his friend at the exit of somerset station.Supposedly, they planned to go for a movie,but in the end to no avail. Then he told me his frens were at "Party World KTV" !! Yes,i have always went to karaoke sessions but not at this kind of places.Its a whole lot of difference, and what happened through out?? I remained hushed most of the time..But it wasnt bored after all,listening to his frens (zahri,ain,zilah,didie,shakir,md.nor and 4 others whom i didnt get their names). The only thing that is so aggravating is most of them are smokers, and so here i am being a passive smoker inhaling everything, and as usual my whole outfit reek of ciggies.. But i am so used to it...

It ended past midnight, so his cousin and him send me home by cab.

A pleasurable moment spend by compromising...... and that was my saturday!!

SUNDAY.......

No one was at home besides me,my youngest sis and mom. So i was damn bored to the core!! I make my way with my youngest sis to eastpoint, the "pathetic" mall. My favourite pastime, cam-whoring!!

TWINS??? NOT!!!!

Bitching oFf,

Sakina

sin-fullybeautiful.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

SUNDAY

One of my favorite days. Sunday.
It's just that warm, fuzzy feeling you get on sunday, you know.
Like you wake up and your mom's in the kitchen cooking your favorite food.
And the weather's nice and all and you look around the house and everyone's just so cheerful.
The whole family's there.
Sunday. An amazing way to spend quality time with your loved ones.

And today was no different.

Everyone was at home.
My parents & my brothers.
Even my 2 cousins and aunt were there.

Mom was being such a dearie.
We were all in the living room watching yesterday's awesome match between singapore and malaysia and she thought she ordered pizzas for us.
Thanks mom! I love you.
We watched the match for the second time together, laughing and teasing one another.
I laughed so hard my tummy ached like crazyyy. :))
But i guess i needed all of that. Laughter is, indeed, the best medicine.
Thank you family. Especially you, Shahril, the 2nd brother. I LOVE YOU. heh.
I just love my family. I know i can always count on them.
I guess i'm ok. :)

Oh and CONGRATULATIONS to our national football squad.
Well done boys.

love,
Nadia.

Some people think that the physical things define what's within
And i've been there before
But that life's a bore, so full of the superficial

sin-fullybeautiful.

Saturday, January 27, 2007

THE TROUBLE WITH LOVE IS

Sometimes it feels great walking alone in the rain.

Noone can tell if you're crying.

But sometimes you want to be around your loved ones.

You want words of comfort from them, you need a shoulder

to cry, you just want them to know how you feel over and over again.

My heart keeps calling and i keep on falling

over and over again, it's true.

This sad story always ends the same,

me standing in the pouring rain.

It seems no matter what i do,

it tears my heart in two.

God know what's best for me and i know there's

always a reason to why certain things didn't

turn out the way we want it to be.

I believe it's for the better.

Ali, i miss you already! Bestfriend,

come back soon ok sunshine?

I will have everything plan for you

once you step your foot here.

Dinner at a posh hotel restaurant will be one of the plan k darling?

and i miss the boys too!

we will meet up soon,

once someone's back from hongkong. =)

hugs and kisses,

Lina.

If i have a million dollars, i would buy a gun

and shoot you in the head!

sin-fullybeautiful.

Friday, January 26, 2007

MY BOYS

I miss my boys.
Ina and Sakina too. We all miss them.
Ariff, Amin, Achap && Khalid.

Oh and not forgetting Ali, the bestfriend who's in Melbourne, Australia.
I can't wait for you to come back this july! ( i want prezzies ok? heh.)

You guys are fucking awesome.
:)

LET'S MEET UP ALREADY!

love,
Nadia.

I won't be the one to chase you

sin-fullybeautiful.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

LIARS, FUCKING LIARS
JERKS, BLOODY JERKS

Liars, fucking liars. All of them.
Why say you're busy, when you're out with someone else.
Don't make promises, when you know you can never fulfil it.

Do not take us for granted.
Don't think we're gonna find you knowing the fact that we like you.
Don't think we're gonna wait for you forever - cause time won't wait for us.

And lastly, when you're out having fun, don't think we're not.

Knowing the fact that everyday i'll always find for you, i think you went a bit too far and took me for granted.
I believe there's always limits to everything.
And i don't want to say this ;which is my PATIENCE is running out.
Thanxxxxxx eeeeeyyyhhhh...

Is this one of your stupid plan or is this one of her stupid plan?
WELL DONE!
I fell for it but not for long cause i don't want to be a fool to cry over some stupid guy who thinks he is all that.
Thank you "dear"

So you're good at acting too eh?
Thanks for the lies and thanks for pretending.
I'm done.
GOODBYE AND FUCK YOU.

S.I.N

You must not know 'bout me, you must not know 'bout me.
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

sin-fullybeautiful.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

C.H.A.N.G.E

Sumtymes life changes

When u dont want it to...

At the wrong time and the wrong place....

When we need our luvd ones around;

They were never there.

To make you laugh or smile,

Share your sorrows and joy.

All you need is someone that will be there for you.

Like the times that u were always there for them.

Someone to talk to and walk with;

Listen to you like how you always did for them.

All you need is someone to be there.

Now they are gone;

And slowly things are changing.

Bitching oFf,

Sakina

sin-fullybeautiful.

THE GAME

Is this the way it suppose to be?

Guys. They would do whatever it takes to pursue a girl.

They would text you every single day without fail.

They would give you all their attention in the world.

Eventho they were busy, they would at least drop you a text.

But after knowing you like them, they stop texting you everyday

and showed you less attention.

Have you ever came across that kind of situation?

Well i have.

Not once, not twice but a couple of times.

Is this the way the game suppose to be played?

In the first place, why is it even a game?

I'm a human being, still alive and have feelings.

Today's secondary school students have better love lives than me.

It's like they know how to play the game,

while im still struggling to play it right.

I guess i can never get it right? I guess.

Cause in the first place, i never treat it as a game.

It's never a game in the past, present nor the future.

You don't play around with feelings or rather i don't play

around with feelings and i hope you would do the same.

I guess my insecurity lies in the fact that you know

how to make the right moves and say the right things all the time,

while i'm an utter novice in this.

All i'm looking for is a gentle prince who knows how to treat his princess well

and lavish her with gifts, someone who loves only me and doesn't have a harem of women.

I'm not trying to be selfish or self-centred, who only thinks about me and only me.

But for once let me be selfish.

Let me be the selfish Lina who doesn't like sharing, who never like sharing.

Im not asking much, just that and your attention cause i long

for it as u stop giving me that attention. you stop.

hugs and kisses,

Lina

Don't hate the player, hate the game.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

LIBRARY DATE

Today i woke up with a slight headache.
I wanted to go back to sleep but i knew it was time to wake up.
I opened my eyes reluctantly and stared at the ceiling for a little while.
Then i thanked ALLAH that i'm still alive.

I thought of starting the day with a delicious healthy meal.
So i made myself peanut butter with banana wholemeal sandwich. Toast, of course. :)

T-t-t-t-t-tasty, tasty.

Then i suddenly felt like going to the library. So i text msged Ina about the suggestion.
She was cool with it and off we went to the library!

The HUGO room

BOOKSSSSSS!!

heh :)

IIIIIIIIINA!

After the library date, we went to grab something to eat and then had our usual "talk-time" at the neighborhood playground. hah!

That pretty much sums up my whole day.
I guess i had fun. :))

love,
Nadia.

Illusion never changed into something real.
I'm wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn.
You're a little late, i'm already torn.

sin-fullybeautiful.

UNAPPRECIATED

6 days already and still counting??

Lately I've been feeling, feeling unappreciated

There's nothing I wouldn't do,

To hear your voice again,

Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there.

There's nothing I wouldn't to do,

To have just one more chance,

To look into your eyes and see you looking back.

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit.

Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss.

hugs and kisses,

Lina.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

STUCK ON PAUSE

Have you ever felt like you were stuck on pause while everyone around you seems to be moving on to bigger, better things?
You know, like everyone seems to have something important to do or somewhere to go.
And you, on the other hand, are doing absolutely nothing.
And it doesn't help when everything seems to turn out really really wrong for you.

I truly hate this feeling.

I see people, friends around me moving on to bigger, better things in life.
They have stable careers, having relationships and i feel that i am being left behind.
I know i should be happy for them. Well i am. Truly.

But it's just that...
When is it gonna be my turn?

Here i am, 21 years old, jobless with no love life.
How truly pathetic.

I seriously need to get my ass off and do some job hunting.
I never had a morning spent perusing the job advertisements.
Gee, that would be fun. Pffffft.
One more thing, i hate interviews!
And i certainly don't want to feel demoralized.
Yes people, i can be a little bit pessimistic.

As for love, i'm 21 and i have never been in love before.
Sure, i've had a boyfriend and been on a lot of dates.
Just not in love.
Does love really exists?
How does it feels like to be in love?
Is it really that amazing?
That magnificent?
Is the feeling really indescribable?

Even though I'm not quite sure whether there is such a thing called love, all i know is that i longed for it.
Everyone is, right?

Maybe because love is the closest thing we have to magic.

love,
Nadia.

sin-fullybeautiful.

FROM AUTUMN TO ASHES - AUTUMNS MONOLOGUE

Oh why can't I be what you need?

A new improved version of me.

But I'm nothing so good

no, I'm nothing...

just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs

of violence, of love, and of sorrow.

I beg for just one more tomorrow!

Where you'd hold me down, fold me in

deep deep deep in the heart of your sins.

I'd break in two over you

I'd break in two

and each piece of me dies

and only you can give the breath of life!

But you don't see me. You dont.

Here I'm pinned between darkness and light,

bleached and blinded by these nights.

Where I'm tossing and tortured till dawn

by you, visions of you, then you're gone.

The shock bleeds the red from my face,

when i hear someone's taken my place.

How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?

When all, all that i did was for you...

I'd break in two over you

I'd break in two

and each piece of me dies

and only you can give the breath of life!

But you dont see me. You don't.

I'd break in two over you

I'd break in two

and each piece of me dies

and only you can give the breath of life!

But you don't see me. You don't.

I'd break in two over you,

I'd break in two over you! Over you

I'd break in two, I would break in two for you.

Now you see me, now you don't.

Now you need me, now you don't.

hugs and kisses,

Lina.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

CLUELESS & PARANOID

Par-a-noi-a is killing me.

Love,
Nadia.

what are you waiting for?
i'm not running from you.

sin-fullybeautiful.

SAY ANYTHING, BUT SAY WHAT YOU MEAN.

I wonder why people love to lie. Is it part of our lives? i guess so.
It's not as if i never lied before, i do. Everyone does.
But to lie and hurt people's feeling?
And to lead people on?

Yesterday night i had a talk with someone important in my life - my one and only big brother.
We were talking about relationships. And this conversation caught me.

Big Brother: "Girls nowadays are rather stupid."
Me: "Why do u say that?"
Big Brother: "They trust guys too much, too soon. When a guy said he's busy, he's actually not. He's just out having fun."
Me: "But not all guys are like that, right?"
He just nodded and walked away.

Ok, not everyone are like that but there's quite a handful of them.
Maybe i came acrossed some.
Don't talk about feelings, if they weren't really there.
Don't say that you care, if you don't give a damn.
Don't say that you dream of my face when it's actually someone else.
You know what i mean? That's called deceiving!

You don't give false hopes to people and then crush it.
It's wrong and not to mention HURTFUL.

If you don't mean what u say, please don't say it at all.
In other words, say what you mean, mean what you say.

Sometimes i just feel that you do not have to lie. Just tell the truth.
People say that the truth hurts, but i feel that the lies hurt even more.

hugs and kisses,
Lina.

I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Friday, January 19, 2007

ANY SURETIES?????

12 more days and the month of January will be ova!! Then comes February and I still cudnt get 2 sureties to help me sign a 2-year bond contract with the "REHAB.RENEW.RESTART" department...

After going thru 4 stages of an interview, made up of a psychometric test, panel interview with 3 officers, the physical fitness test, and lastly the medical check-up, it will be more than disenchantment for me to being forced to back out at the very last minute, just because I am not able to get 2 sureties who is above 21 yrs old and working...

Why not my parents???
*My mom is not working, so there isnt any more CPF contributions, so she is not eligible.
*My dad???? He is the sole breadwinner, so if I were to break the bond ,not saying that I will ever want to break it, but if it happens and I am not able to pay for the loss, then he got to answer for me...I wudnt want to add another load for him at this age...I have cause him much of a yoke!!!

My Brother???
*himself is still stuck to his 5-year bond with the SPF

I wudnt want to give up after going thru all the trouble...Its something that I have been wanting and waiting to get in...
I have tried all 3 "blue"colored uniformed groups....SCDF, SPF and PRISONS
Thanks to god, finally I managed to get into one....But still I got to go thru the last obstacle which is to sign the papers......then will I have to leave all my luvd ones during the weekdays for like 6 months...this will be another obstacle, but it will be at a latter part....

So any SURETIES????

Bitching oFf,
Sakina

sin-fullybeautiful.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

THE SIMPLE LIFE

In this particular blog, you will read about the lives of 3 friends.

There's Sakina. The most patient one in the group. The one always giving out advices. Always thinking postively. She's the one who talks with full of expressions. And her laughter is interestingly contagious. She's full of sarcasticly funny jokes and there's never a dull moment when you're with her. PLUS, she can drive!

And then there's Lina. Affectionately known as Ina by family members and close friends only. She's also the youngest of the group - therefore, she could be a little childish and silly. Ina's a freaking blur queen. Repetitions are always a MUST for her. She's also good at taking photos. The most creative among the three. She may be the most petite in the group but she's amazingly fierce. So watch out!

Last but not least, there's Nadia. Sakina's bff. They've been friends for 9 years and still counting. And she has known Ina practically her whole life. They're cousins. Nadia's the most impatient among the three. If you want to date her, please tell her 3 days in advance. She needs to pick her clothes, shoes, match her bag - you get the idea. She can never be on time because she needs at least 3 hours to get dolled up. She's ALWAYS late. For guys out there, take note. She will cost you a bomb because she's the only daughter!

In this blog, they'll rant their anger, share their joy and sorrow.
These are their pure emotions.
This is real life.

sin-fullybeautiful.