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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

SWEAR SWEAR SWEAR!

Bare with me cause im gonna start swearing.

Work sucks and i mean it!

I am forcing and dragging myself to the STUPID workplace every single day!

I am UNHAPPY! And im fucking hate it.

Went back to HQ and im seriously not happy about it.

YOU said to take it in a POSITIVE WAY? FUCK YOU!

YOU PEOPLE said YOU want US to be HAPPY working ~~WITH~~ FOR YOU,

but im not happy leh. Why YOU PEOPLE not doing anything about it??

YOU want us to understand YOU but i don't think YOU understand us at all.

I rebel cause im not happy with YOU, YOU and YOU!

Whats up with all the EMPTY PROMISES?

YOU never fulfill it AT ALL!

YOU are so FULL of YOURSELF.

YOU think YOU'RE the best huh?

I DON'T THINK SO!

WARNING!

Don't you think im quiet, you can step on my head.

Cause once you step on my head, you fucking gonna get it.

I can be very mean if i want to but mostly i don't.

I never like trouble and i don't like to create trouble.

But if you challenge me then im left with no choice.

Im seriously pissed and im still am now.

There's no way i can cool myself down cause im so pissed for 3 days straight.

Im gonna get out from that hell as soon as possible.

Pay me so little and suffer a lot.

For what???!!!

On a happier note, the people from other company

make me smile at the end of the day

and i thank them for that.

I prefer them rather den the people from my own company.

But i heart Alpha and Brovo team! =)

Hugs and Kisses,

Lina

No, he's not.

You are i guess.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Monday, February 26, 2007

BAD DAY

Today was one of the worse day of my working life.

I hate my job. It's THE worst job everrrr.

And it doesn't help that i couldn't really get

along with most of the people there.

Team Alpha and Bravo are still the best. You guys rock.

You guys are my rock. :)

Since i started this stupid job, all i ever did was swear.

Even vincent sayang said it was too much.

And really, i swear wayyy too much.

And i can't seem to control my anger like i used to.

And today, i was so pissed that i feel like throwing that stupid PC at her cheebye face.

I know you spoke ill of me.

I fucking understand chinese you motherfucking ignorant bitch.

TO NICOLE LEE OF NOKIA CARE CENTRE AT WHEELOCK PLACE

GO FUCK YOURSELF

ugh. ok. i'm done.

anyways, i think kenneth is adorable :)

Oh and today i also realised how much i miss my friends.

The usual gang.

Ariff, Amin, Sakina, Ezan, Khalid, Cicik && Achap.

Ina & I miss you guys! Hang out soon ok?

And i especially miss Amin.

The good old days at seab were the best huh?

love,

nadia.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Friday, February 23, 2007

A "SET" STORY

Oct 8th 06, i received a "set" as my birthday present.
I wasnt that happy cause i wanted another "set" but

since i got this "set" so why waste it.
I didnt like it at first.
I dislike it so much but after sometime i get the hang of it.
As time passes by, i like it. I like it so much.
1 month passed,2 month passed, 3 month passed it was still ok.

Then Jan 5th 07, i cant receive any incoming text.
I went to send the "set" for servicing.
It went for a software upgrade.
It was back to normal and i was happy to get it back.
It was working like it used too.

But a few days later it was down again.
Again it went for an software upgrading and some changes in the parts.

Jan 18th 07, it was getting worst.
Worst than i tot.
Not only that i cant receive any incoming textes,

i cant receive incoming calls too.
But i waited to see maybe it will work again in a few days time.
Sadly, it didnt.
I went to service it again and this time

round the motherboard is being changed.
It works only for a day.
I was mad and i was sad. But i couldnt be bothered.

Feb 5th 07, it suddenly worked again.
But not for long before it dies.

Feb 14th 07, it was back again.
I could receive incoming textes.
It brings me joy, i was over the moon.
And this time round i tot i should bring it in for
servicing maybe i can use it again as it used too.
Too bad, it was declared BER (Beyond Repair).
It cant be repair anymore.
I cant help it but to feel really really down.
After so much i went thru and it was declared BER just like that.

And today, i tot i should get a new "set".
I wont want the same model.
There's so many models to choose and i will choose the best.
If i could get a new "set" soon it will be great

but not soon enuff cause i still cant get over the BER "set".

PS: you guys might not understand what i mean.

At least some do understand. right nadia? =)

Hugs and Kisses,

Lina.

It will be such a shame to tell you how i really feel

cause all i have now is my pride.

sin-fullybeautiful.

THAT SECOND DATE

(February 20th, 2007)

How can so wrong feel so right?

I understand sooner or later i have to let you go.
If you can do this to her, then you can do the same thing to me.

love,
nadia.

boy it's such a shame, you belong to another.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

DO I KNOW YOU?

This things happen once too many and

i don't even know who they are.

Weird? Yes. It is weird.

Calling my name and looking at me as if they know me.

But i don't know them at all and i mean it, AT ALL.

Is this suppose to be a good thing or a bad thing?

If you people happens to see me outside with my friends,

i don't mind you people coming up to me to say Hi.

Just don't shout my name out loud and then walk away.

Cause i will keep on thinking how you people know my name.

And if i have this stuck up face, no im not arrogant.

So don't be afraid to say Hi. I don't bite. HAH!

The day with the girls went great.
We play bowl, we had 65 sticks of satay and we chilled at Mc Cafe till 1am.
I had fun, the girls had fun.
I love them, i love us.

We were late.. actually i was late.
We were suppose to meet at 4.30 but i was still getting
ready at that point of time. So we reached at about 5.30?
We had late lunch and early dinner at Burger King.
I swear we were making a lot of noise there.
Every eyes were looking at us but we don't really care.

We then headed to Superbowl and indeed we had lots of fun.
After bowl we make our way to Lau Pa Sat.
We walked there and me with my red 3 inch heels.
We even dance to the beat when we heard music from the nearest funfair.
We're one really really crazy bunch of girls.
That's what happen when all of us met.

After supper, we make our way back to Raffles Station.
Guess what we did underground.
Me, wati, huhu and nura took off our footwear
and started sprinting towards the escalator.
Not only that, it's like as if we own the train too.

Overall,
Im a happy, happy and crazy OnlyLina.

Hugs and Kisses,
Lina

It's such a shame but i'm leaving.
Can't take the way you been treating me
and it's crazy but ohh baby
it don't matter whatever don't faze me.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

4 DAYS OFF

When i looked at all my recent pictures,

i wonder why my face look rather sad.

To laugh and smile when you're actually sad inside

is something not everyone can do it. ehh?

Im physically and mentally tired.

Not having enough rest eventho im having 4 days

off work due to CNY.

I tot that i can have my own time for myself

but 4 days is just not enough.

I didn't really have time for myself.

But i don't care at least my 4 days off

is well spent with my loved ones yet again.

That's all i want. It's ok if i don't have time

for myself at least i have time for my loved ones is great enough.

So yesterday i went to the cemetery again.

I like it there. HAHA. Weird? No. It's peaceful.

The last time i went i tot to myself that i want to

change the white cloth of someone elses tombstones

but too bad, i didn't even get out of the car cause the

fact is i can't. Mom said if we go to the cemetery

the dead will pray for us. Something like that.

I waited in the car for about half an hour, i guess.

I looked out of the window and looked around.

The place is so peaceful. You will forget about your problems,

you will forget about how you feel.

All you can think of is GOD. To be close with HIM.

After visiting, my family went to my grandparents place

at Boon Lay. I don't usually go there.

I will only visit my grandparents place during the festive seasons.

But yesterday was different. I followed them tho.

Wan (My granny) cooked lemah teowchu(is the spelling right?).

It's yummy tho but spicy cause she used cilipadi.

Ohh.. my granny, she's chinese muslim btw.

So we stayed there till about 2pm and went home.

Upon reaching home, i slept all the way till night.

Im tired. But before i slept, i watched Fat Albert. I like!

Hey, Hey, Hey! =p

And today, im going out to meet my girls up.

Our plan, play bowl and have dinner at lau pa sat

den chill till late.

I told cha it's peaceful here.

(Daripadanya kita datang, kepadanya kita kembali.)

[From HIM we came, To HIM we return.]

Hugs and Kisses,
Lina

Everytime someone says they care about me,
they wind up leaving me.
They're so cruel, and i dislike them now.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

FEBRUARY 16th, 2007

Had CNY celebration at work, HQ. It was alright. Pretty bland.
But my colleagues made it fun. Thank you so much guys.
Especially sayang. :) HAHA.
And the food was okay too i guess. I thought the curry was awesome though.

Ina & Sayang

Ina & Chris

Sayang & I

Sayang and his act cute face. haha.

Us. :))

After the celebration, we were dismissed.
Went to bugis and walked around with
sayang, ina, chris, marilyn, sondra && emerick.
Then chilled at TCC, ordered some drinks and talked crap as usual.
Since majority were tired, we then decided to go home.

Ina & I walked home as usual from tampines interchange.
There was actually a soccer match going on
between home united and tampines rovers.
I was hoping my uncle would be at the stadium and
maybe he could get us in for free.
And he did. He gave us two complimentary tickets.
We were stoked. We wanted to see our good friend, Ariff, play.
But he didn't play that day. Ahhh well, some other time.
Well at least we saw him warming up. Hah!

FEBRUARY 17th, 2007

Woke up at 10 a.m today. And boy, it was awesome!
Bath, had breakfast and was just about to go online when
my beloved brother called.
He wanted Ina & I to babysit his kid. And we agreed.
I love his house anyways. :)

The living room - sitting area

The entertainment area

The dining area

The kid. haha.

His cute colorful room

Isn't he adorable?

Irish Ash Awra

Fiza dropped by my brother's place as well.
Fiza, Ina and I ended up watching channel's 8 news.
Yu Sheng looks yummy. haha.
And then we watched Something's Gotta Give on channel 5.
Pretty good movie.
We left soon after the movie ended.
So that was my Saturday.

love,
nadia.

you say you dream of my face but you don't like me
you just like the chase

sin-fullybeautiful.

Friday, February 16, 2007

WELL SPENT DAY

Last day of work tomorrow and

off we go for the looooong holiday

before coming back to work again. HAIYA!

I don't have plans for the weekends but

i have plans on monday and tuesday.

So whoever wanna ask me out,

let me know. HAHAHA!

Last sunday was a very busy day for me.
I was out the whole day.
From 10.30 in the morning till 12.30 at night.

I was up early and got ready
and went to AMK to play squash.
It was fun and tiring.
Just think about the bad times and
i bet you will hit the ball hard! =)

After washed up, we went to Vivo City

and had our lunch at Thai Express.

Walked around and waited for someone

at Starhub Customer Service Centre.

I bought myself a top at Zara using

my big sister money. Thanks eh kak!

It wrote "Goodnight boys, meet me in your dreams"

How cool is that! and i love it!

Went back and met my parents

at Best Denki to sign some stuff

for the thing that big sister bought.

The thing is here!! It's in my room now

and im loving it. I bet i won't leave my room now.

Then we went to courts and mom bought

clothes steamer(i have no idea what it's called).

I went home, washed up, changed

and off i went to town to meet up the peeps.
At that point of time it was already 7++pm.
It was great meeting them up again.
But too bad Achap and Khalid can't make it.
Well, we will be meeting up again this 19th. i guess.

So yeah, basically we chilled and

talked craps as usual.

Ariff plan to meet up again when

we get our 1st pay.

The plan was to have dinner at Fish&Co

and catch a movie at PS.

As it was already late all of us make

our move and went home together.

Sakina sent us home. 1st stop,

ariff's place then so on then amin's,

then nadia's and last stop was mine.

Thanks sakina for the wonderful ride.

The sunday that was well spent!

Of course, not forgetting the argument

with Amin. It's an advice actually.

Thanks again. It shows that he cares.

Yesterday, i know it's Vday but im not

gonna touch much on that. I've got

a last min called that we supposed to

be at HQ. So i make my way there.

It was great meeting everyone again.

But the day come to an end

cause we got to go back to the

centre that they assigned us.

Vday was nothing special to me.

It's like any normal wednesday.

Except that i've got normal Vday wishes. HAHA!

One was from none other than my bestfriend, Ali.

Happy Vday to you too sunshine.

And the other was from a guy friend.

So that's why i said Vday was nothing special.

Hugs and Kisses,

Lina

If you get there before i do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores all through, I don't know how long I'll be.
But i'm not gonna let you down, Darling wait and see.
Till I see you again.

sin-fullybeautiful.

BECAUSE TO YOU, IT'S JUST A GAME

Sometimes when things work out for someone,
it doesn't mean it will work out for you as well.
They could be happy at what they're doing but not you.
No one ever said that life was fair and i'm not saying that it should be.
Bahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Work sucks.
Working hours suck even more.
I barely have time for anyone. Let alone myself. Jeez. I hate it.
I don't know how much longer i can stand this.
But thank god for my colleagues. You guys are the best.

Anyways, there's just something i couldn't comprehend.
I don't understand why i always end up being the rebound girl.
If you still have feelings for your ex-girlfriend,
then fucking leave me alone.
Stop trying to be with me when you still can't get over your ex-girlfriend.
Don't say things you say to me and then disappear one day.
And i had to hear from someone else that you've made up with her.
I'm not a mannequin. I have feelings.
And i hate it that i always get someone else's boyfriend.
Note to all attached guys out there: LEAVE ME ALONE.
I don't like being lied to. Don't say things you don't really mean.
And please don't tell me that i make it hard for you to be faithful.
I don't find it sweet and it's definitely not a compliment.

Moving on.
So yesterday was valentine's day.
I hope everyone had a good one with your loved ones.
I don't have a date.
Never had a date during valentine's day anyways.
So it didn't really bother me that much.
And i'm a believer of "if you really love someone,
everyday should be like valentine's day."
Well, only one person wished me yesterday.
It was from my bestfriend, Ali.
I love you buddy. :)

Times like this when you realised if you really matter to someone.
And i guess i'm nothing to you.

love,
Nadia.

because to you, it's just a game

sin-fullybeautiful.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

SAY OK

you are fine, you are sweet
but i'm still a bit naive with my heart
when you're close, i don't breathe
i can't find the words to speak
i feel sparks

but i don't wanna be into you
if you're not looking for true love
no i don't wanna start seeing you
if i can't be your only one

so tell me when it's not alright
when it's not ok
will you try to make me feel better?
will you say alright? (say alright)
will you say ok? (say ok)
will you stick with me through whatever?
or run away?
say that it's gonna be alright
that it's gonna be ok
say ok

when you call i don't know
if i should pick up the phone everytime
i'm not like all my friends
who keep calling up the boys
i'm so shy

but i don't wanna be into you
if you don't treat me the right way
see i can only start seeing you
if you can make my heart feel safe (feel safe)

when it's not alright
when it's not ok
will you try to make me feel better?
will you say alright? (say alright)
will you say ok? (say ok)
will you stick with me through whatever?
or run away?
say that it's gonna be alright
that it's gonna be ok
don't run away, don't run away

let me know if it's gonna be you
boy, you've got some things to prove
let me know that you'll keep me safe
i don't want you to run away so
let me know that you'll call on time
let me know that you'll help me shine
will you wipe my tears away
will you hold me close and say

when it's not alright
when it's not ok
will you try to make me feel better
will you say alright?
will you say ok?
will you stick with me through whatever?
or run away
say that it's gonna be alright
that it's gonna be ok
say ok
don't run away, don't run away
say that it's gonna be alright
that it's gonna be ok
don't run away
will you say ok
say that it's gonna be alright
that it's gonna be ok

love,
nadia.

you're just like a commercial
i knew from the start you're lying
but you're so convincing i had to believe

sin-fullybeautiful.

ON TRAINING

Been working for more than a week now

and im not feeling well.

Maybe due to the lack of rest.

So all i need now is rest and

i need to spend some time for myself.

But it's all good!

Other than undergoing training at work,

at times we got nothing to do at all.

So we will spent our time talking

about alot of things.

eg: different cultures and religions, lifes, BOYS etc.

And we can even talk about work politics.

Thats how bored we're at work.

We're not sure about our work schedule nx wk

but i heard they have more training

for us to attend. How tiring can that be?

But the best thing is that

this coming friday we gonna have

Chinese New Year Celebration at work.

I hope we will get $$ on that day. HAHA.

Be meeting the peeps tomorrow.

i guess?

Ain't sure yet if it's still on.

And i HATE empty promises.

There's too many empty promises being said nowadays.

In the past, i don't really mind if the promises you said

is not being fulfil but not anymore.

Im sick and tired of empty promises.

Hugs and Kisses,

Lina

there are two types of people in this world,

one who disappear on his own accord

and the other who is removed by me.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Friday, February 09, 2007

4 DAYS LEFT.........

I finally found 2 sureties!! Yayeness...!! My dad decided to give in and just gambled with me and the other suretie was my good friend, Halimatus Sa'adiah. Luckily, she also gambled with my dad. There goes my 2 yrs bond!! So, nadiah and ina have been working for a week plus and here i am just about to start work on the 14th!! *pffffffftttttttt.....!!!!* When everyone is like in the holiday mood for the upcoming week, i am struggling with my new job and environment... I'll just pray for the best and hope that everything runs smoothly and most important of all, i CANNOT fall sick!! Cos i am the kind of person whereby, once i stepped into a new working place i'll fall sick after a week or two. So, i got to take extra care on the activities i do, the food i eat, my sleeping patterns, bla bla bla bla.........

So now i am left with 4 days to do wateva i wanna do, spend time with all the people around me, and get plenty of rest a day or two before i start a total new career. I cant wait to like go meet nadiah, ina and the rest on sunday cos I have been sitting at home all alone for the past few days, doing all the household chores.

Here are some random pictures that i took on different occasions...

"Me,Myself and I"

"Oooohhhhh...La la la la la....."
(nad and ina,its for u both)

this is what i do after i'm totally done and over with the household chores!!

my aunt's wedding

my sis, cousin and me

*spot that pimple there* Eewwwwww.....

the both of us on the bride and groom's bed

us leaving for the wedding...

it seems that we've been taking more fotos than the bride and groom *yikes*

Bitching oFf,

Sakina

sin-fullybeautiful.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

THAT FIRST DATE

February 5th, 2007. We met again. But this time it was only the two of us.
Our first date.
Initially, i was nervous. I barely know the guy.
(but boy, have i heard a lot about him. tsk tsskk.)
But like, that's the purpose of a date right? To know someone better?

So i met him at city hall mrt station. And he was late. pffft.
He met me after work and his workplace is like somewhere at the east.
So i understand. Well at least he did apologized.
He asked if i wanted to get something to eat but i declined.
It was already after 6pm. (i'm on a strict diet whereby i don't eat after 6pm)
So we went to 7-11 as he wanted to buy some beef jerky.
He asked if i wanted anything and i said no.
Then we went to marina square rooftop to talk
and he wanted to smoke as well.
Thinking where to go and chill that day was making my brain hurt. haha.
And so he suggested a movie. There was really nothing to do so i agreed.
He asked me what kinda movie i like to watch and i said horror.
So he went and bought couple seats to thai's The Unseeable.
We had 1 hr to kill before the movie starts
so he brought me to sit and talk at the esplanade.
We had a pretty decent conversation. :)

So he bought a hotdog combo meal and mentos
and asked me what i want - again, i declined.
When we entered the cinema,
we were shocked to see there's only one person there.
As we were settling down, more people came in.
But in the end, there were only 11 people including us.
I enjoyed the movie anddd his smell. Weird, i know.
But it's just this smell of him
- a mixture of his cologne, body odour and cigarette.
Something only he have.
After the movie ended, we took the cab back. He sent me home.

It was merely just a few hours spent together. But it was pleasant.
You actually made me feel comfortable around you.
At first, I thought you were the unapproachable kind.
You totally caught me by surprise. And i'm glad. :))

OH, CONGRATULATIONS TO THE BOYS FOR WINNING THE ASEAN FOOTBALL CHAMPIONSHIP! WE ARE PROUD.

love,
Nadia.

But i haven't surrender my heart just yet.
On that first date.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Monday, February 05, 2007

MY LOVED ONES

Today, i woke up early in the morning because the family had a plan.

We went to Chua Chu Kang Muslim Cemetery to visit my late grandma.

You know, i like going to the cemetery cause to me,

it's very peaceful there and we will realise

that, that's gonna be our home once we return to HIM.

After visiting, we went to have our lunch at Jurong.

That place is so packed with people.

But it was cool cause i know that my day

is well spent with my loved ones.

Now that i've already started working,

i realise that i don't really have much

time to spend with anyone.

5th Feb, late grandma 3rd year death ani.

How time flies so fast.

It feels like yesterday i last visited her at the hospital.

and i miss her!

Do treasure those around you when you still have them.

And i love my LOVED ONES!

hugs and kisses,

Lina

You know, some people don't treasure what they have

until they lost it and realise they miss it so much but

it was already too late to regret it.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

KALLANG ROARRR

Kallang does roar. And i love every second of it. It was fucking amazing.
The feeling was indescribable. You have to be there to feel it.

Met ina below her block. Then we walked to tampines interchange.
The moment we stepped our foot at tampines interchange, we saw red.
Took the train and we saw more people wearing red.
And the train was so freaking packed. We were squeezing like crazy.
Then at Bedok, a group of guys wearing red aboarded the train.
They were excited we could tell.
A couple of them wore headbands with the words SINGAPORE on it.
They brought their own horn and even cheered - in the train!
Kallang mrt station was so packed with people in red. IT WAS CRAZYYY!
We had to squeeze ourselves silly to get out of there.
And it wasn't easy i tell ya!
Waited for Fiza and Daniel to arrive and off we went.

The atmosphere inside the stadium was my favorite.
It was unbelievable. I had goosebumps. But it was the best.
Seeing all those strong 55, 000 strong crowd, clad mostly in red,
cheering and stuff.
Everyone was there. Hip-hoppers, scene kids, uncles & aunties, students, etc.
You named it. All kinds of people were there.
When it was time to sing the national anthem,
no one sang in the same riotous and deliriously happy way we did at the National Stadium.

I loved every single moment of it.

our awesome view. thanks to daniel. :)

waiting for the match to start

while waiting - hah!

the line-up

anddd the match began

the first goal

half-time

half-time entertainment. hahaha!

waiting in anticipation

the penalty

the final whistle
(2-1 to singapore)

very happy and satisfied singaporeans

very happy and satisfied us :))

Good luck to the boys tomorrow.
Bring the trophy home!

love,
Nadia.

But I don't wanna be into you
if you're not looking for true love.

sin-fullybeautiful.