Sunday, April 15, 2007
INSECURE
I somehow thinks I'm fat and unattractive.
Sometimes, I don't like what I see in the mirror.
Sometimes, I hate how I look in photos.
At times, I dislike everything about me.
From my hair to my body.
It scares me that I'm beginning to hate myself.
I feel like crap.
I don't wish to go out.
I'm not smart enough, skinny enough, pretty enough.
Maybe that's why I always get hurt in the end.
I AM NEVER ENOUGH.
And not getting what I want and need because
of those reasons were just great.
I am not ungrateful.
Deep down inside, I still thank god I am perfectly able.
And that I have 2 eyes, 1 nose and 1 mouth
that's working just fine. Alhamdulillah.
Just that, at times, I get insecure.
Oh god help me.
Make me feel good about myself again.
I think I need help.
:(
love,
nadia.
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah wallahu akbar
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah hasbi ya allah
di tepi kerinduanku
memandang hampa pada dunia
ku hanya orang biasa
tak lepas dari rasa kecewa
hanya pada-Mu tempatku mengadu
pahit yang kini menyiksaku
aku percaya tiada yang sia-sia
semua kan ada hikmahnya
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah wallahu akbar
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah hasbi ya allah
angan yang membalut mimpi
dulu melukis nyanyian hati
ku hanya orang yang telah
satukan hatiku yang terbelah
hanya pada-Mu tempatku mengadu
pahit yang kini menyiksaku
aku percaya tiada yang sia-sia
semua kan ada hikmahnya
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah wallahu akbar
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah hasbi ya allah
I somehow thinks I'm fat and unattractive.
Sometimes, I don't like what I see in the mirror.
Sometimes, I hate how I look in photos.
At times, I dislike everything about me.
From my hair to my body.
It scares me that I'm beginning to hate myself.
I feel like crap.
I don't wish to go out.
I'm not smart enough, skinny enough, pretty enough.
Maybe that's why I always get hurt in the end.
I AM NEVER ENOUGH.
And not getting what I want and need because
of those reasons were just great.
I am not ungrateful.
Deep down inside, I still thank god I am perfectly able.
And that I have 2 eyes, 1 nose and 1 mouth
that's working just fine. Alhamdulillah.
Just that, at times, I get insecure.
Oh god help me.
Make me feel good about myself again.
I think I need help.
:(
love,
nadia.
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah wallahu akbar
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah hasbi ya allah
di tepi kerinduanku
memandang hampa pada dunia
ku hanya orang biasa
tak lepas dari rasa kecewa
hanya pada-Mu tempatku mengadu
pahit yang kini menyiksaku
aku percaya tiada yang sia-sia
semua kan ada hikmahnya
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah wallahu akbar
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah hasbi ya allah
angan yang membalut mimpi
dulu melukis nyanyian hati
ku hanya orang yang telah
satukan hatiku yang terbelah
hanya pada-Mu tempatku mengadu
pahit yang kini menyiksaku
aku percaya tiada yang sia-sia
semua kan ada hikmahnya
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah wallahu akbar
subhanallah walhamdulillah
astagfirullah hasbi ya allah
sin-fullybeautiful.
