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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

I'm DONE!

Silent tears are flowing,

There i sit unknowing.

Maybe you dont know exactly how i feel,

But this pain i am feeling is real.

I am going to let my heart heal,

And not to let things happen rounds after rounds again like a ferris wheel.

I guess all you wanted to do,

Is to play the game.

And all i can say is,

To quit playing the "mind" game.

Life's A

BiTcHiNg OfF,

Sakina

sin-fullybeautiful.

RING-A-DING-A-LING

I've been spending so much time at work. I even went to work on my off days. pfft! Im not a workaholic back den but im starting to be one maybe because the guys i dated or been with are all workaholics. geezzzz! Yesterday, i was so bored at home that i texted Nadia if she wanna have some ice-cream. We met up at our usual place and the weather was scorching hot! Me and the sun can never be bestfriend. haha! =p

Im so vain, i know. haha! Can't help it.

Nadia and i decided on the newly open swensens outlet at CS. There was a long queue but we played our PSP while waiting for our turn. We got a cozy seat away from the crowd, just the way we liked it. =) I had Mac&Cheese and since Nadia already had her dinner at home so she just had frosted chocolate malt for dessert while i had ring-a-ding-a-ling. A day well spent. =)

Hugs N Kisses,
Lina with Love

my heart is damaged

sin-fullybeautiful.

Monday, April 28, 2008

CHAPERON FOR THE DAY

Today, Sakina and I had breakfast at East Coast McDonalds. And we brought Cicik and Don along. It's like bring-your-siblings-out day. Chaperon for the day! Hahai.

After breakfast, we were like contemplating like crazy on where we should go next. Then we decided on Downtown East. We somehow forgotten that today was the opening for the Ferris Wheel and E-hub thingy. Downtown was packed with people. RIMAS! But the place looks like fun. I so wanna go watch movie there. Heh.

Anyways, we were like walking around looking and exploring all the new stuff when a guy approached us asking us to sign up for this NEBO membership. He was like "It's only $15 a year, blah blah blah. It's for people aged between 12 to 21." At that moment, Sakina and I looked at each other and laughed like crazy. And so we said to him politely, "Sorry, we're 23." Hahai! Again, I was mistaken for being younger than my age.

Well, we all had fun. The four of us have decided that we will go out again.

I wanna go Downtown again. I wanna watch movie there, bowl there, eat there. The place looks OH SO HAP-PE-NING!

I reached home, chilled for a little while and went out to meet Ina. We went to eat at Tampines Mall newly opened Swensens Restaurant and did a little shopping. Ina will blog about that. So I'll leave that to her. Heh.

Work tomorrow. I can't wait. Should I wear that dress and my newly bought heels? Ugh. Dilemma.

love,

nadia.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

The day that I spluuurrrrrrrrrrggggeeeeeeeee....!!!!!

Last Friday I went to town with Asraniza. She wanted to find a top, something presentable to meet your "in-laws". My youngest sister and her boyfie decided to join us too since her lessons at school ends early. I thought we will not spend too much time there, approximately like about 2hours or so. But we end up spending like 5 hours there. Anddddddddd.....

GUESS what, guess what, guess what people????

I RECEIVED A "LOVE LETTER" FROM URA. Damn it...!!!!!!!!!! $20 you know!

I dont mind the fees cause it was my "KE-PAN-DAI-AN" laaa...for not putting enough coupons. But for 3 years since i got my license, i HAVE NOT receive any summons like at all, not even by any of the authorities. Like NONE at all. And i believe when there is a first time, there will be a second one, third and so forth. I want a "clean" record!!

the checkered top that my sis have been wanting to buy...

a t-shirt from ZARA that i bought for my sis too

"them"

me and Asraniza

i love HUGS!!

*At the end of the day, i end up buying nothing like at all! I splurge on my sis and I also bought a cute top from ZARA kids for my niece.*

BiTcHiNg OfF,

Sakina

sin-fullybeautiful.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

STUPID SOUR SKITTLES

The stupid sour Skittles is right there. Always there at my sight. I wanna throw it awayyy! Ughhhh!!

Work has been okay. Just freaking tired. Traveling from Tampines to Outram is not fun at all. Loooong journey. Thank god for my PSP. Heh. I haven't seen that cute officer for 2 days now. The last time I saw him was on Wednesday. Bahhhhhhh!
Thursday was good. I went for an hour long tea break with Hafiz, Aslam and Bernard. In less than 2 weeks, they have taught me a lot of this ridiculous stuff. Haha. But it was fun nonetheless. Calling me 'girl' and all. Because I am the only girl in my department, obviously. Hafiz and his never ending jokes about wanting to make me his 2nd wife. Hah! Always asking me why I came late into his life. Sheessshh! Hahai! What's so funny is that he doesn't wanna walk with me anymore at the office. Because he claims that he's sick about those malay officers coming up to him to ask about me. Haha. Thanks ehh Hafiz. So much for wanting to help me find my soulmate. Haha. Anyways, while I was walking from my workplace to Outram MRT station, I bumped into someone I did not expect to bump into. Fancy meeting you there. Didn't know you were posted there. You're still the same noisy person I remembered 2 years ago. Suke ehh kacau-kacau orang? Hahai.
Work on Friday was a bore. Hafiz and Aslam didn't come. So that wasn't fun. Super boringggg! You guys better be at work on Monday. Pfffffft.

Oh, my phone is ringing right now. And it's Amin. Asking me how I am and how I'm doing. Asking how I'm coping with my recent heartbreak. Macam paham. Hahai! Ok got to go and talk to him. Update later!

Anyways SIN, this picture is for old time's sake. I MISS THOSE DAYSSSS!!

Looking at those stupid sour skittles is KILLING me.

OK BYE.

love,

nadia

katamu ku hanya teman biasa

sin-fullybeautiful.

Friday, April 25, 2008

THE ART OF BEING WELL

BY DR DRAUZIO VARELLA

If you don't want to be ill… …Speak Your Feelings.

Emotions and feelings that are hidden, repressed, end in illnesses as: gastritis, ulcer, lumbar pains, spinal. With time, the repression of the feelings degenerates to the cancer. Then, we go to a confidante, to share our intimacy, our "secret", our errors! The dialogue, the speech, the word, is a powerful remedy and an excellent therapy!

If you don't want to be ill… …Make Decisions.

The undecided person remains in doubt, in anxiety, in anguish. Indecision accumulates problems, worries and aggressions. Human history is made of decisions To decide is precisely to know to renounce, to know to lose advantages and values to win others. The undecided people are victims of gastric ailments, nervous pains and problems of the skin.

If you don't want to be ill… …Find Solutions.

Negative people do not find solutions and they enlarge problems. They prefer lamentation, gossip, pessimism. It is better to light a match that to regret the darkness. A bee is small, but produces one of the sweetest things that exist. We are what we think. The negative thought generates negative energy that is transformed into illness.

If you don't want to be ill… …Don't Live By Appearances.

Who hides reality, pretends, poses and always wants to give the impression of being well. He wants to be seen as perfect, easy-going, etc. but is accumulating tons of weight. A bronze statue with feet of clay. There is nothing worse for the health than to live on appearances and facades. These are people with a lot of varnish and little root. Their destiny is the pharmacy, the hospital and pain.

If you don't want to be ill… …Accept.

The refusal of acceptance and the absence of self-esteem, make us alienate ourselves. Being at one with ourselves is the core of a healthy life. They who do not accept this, become envious, jealous, imitators, ultra-competitive, destructive. Be accepted, accept that you are accepted, accept the criticisms. It is wisdom, good sense and therapy.

If you don't want to be ill… …Trust.

Who does not trust, does not communicate, is not opened, is not related, does not create deep and stable relations, does not know to do true friendships. Without confidence, there is not relationship. Distrust is a lack of faith in you and in faith itself.

If you don't want to be ill… …Do not Live Life Sad.

Good humor. Laughter. Rest. Happiness. These replenish health and bring long life. The happy person has the gift to improve the environment wherever they live. "Good humor saves us from the hands of the doctor." Happiness is health and therapy.

I MISS HIM!!!!!! ='(

God, please?

Hugs N Kisses
Lina with Love

sin-fullybeautiful.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

One step at a Time

Hurry up and wait

So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough that you can taste

But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet

You wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face as the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated

And you're getting all kind impatient, waiting

We live and we learn to take...

One step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time

You believe and you doubt

You're confused and got it all figured out

Everything that you've always wished for

Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours

If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet

You wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face as the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated

And you're getting all kind impatient, waiting

We live and we learn to take...

One step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time

When you can't wait any longer

But there's no end in sight

(When you need to find the strength)

It's your faith that makes you stronger

Then only we get there is one step at a time

Take one step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time

sin-fullybeautiful.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

DELUSIONAL

My eyebags are crazyyyyy. Crazily darkened. Omg. This has to stop. Bahhhhh! I have been sleeping at 1-2am and waking up at 5.30am for work. This really has to stop. Why I woke up that early you asked? Simple. MAKE UP. Hahai. I need to make up to go to work. I HAVE TO. There's hot malay officers you know. Haha.

Speaking about hot malay officers, heh heh. Well, I had a 'conversation' with this cute officer.

Monday, 21st April 2008
We bumped into one another 3 freaking times. One time near the toilet, 2nd time when I was going to the lobby to sit and he was already inside the lift, the door closing. He saw me, pressed the lift open, stuck his head out and said "Are you going down?" I smiled and politely said "No, I'm just sitting here." 3rd time was at the corridor. I was going to the toilet while he had knocked off from work.

Tuesday, 22nd April 2008
He was nowhere in sight. I lunched in with Hafiz, so I didn't get to see him.

Wednesday, 23rd April 2008.
We spoke again. Well, he spoke to me. I just smiled.
I was minding my own business sitting at the lobby playing my PSP when he came out of the lift with his friends. He was like saying to his friends, "Eh sini ader camera. Tak bleh main game." He caught me making a face shortly after he said that. OOPSS! He was like "Eh marah nampak." Then he walked pass me and said "Jangan marah ehh. Kita gurau jer." I gave a big smile. HAHAI!

It's funny how Hafiz was like telling Aslam in the office that I was finding a soulmate. Carik jodoh. And he wanna recommend some to me. And Aslam replied, "Tak payah carik kan. Da banyak org notice dia sendiri. Dia da pandai duduk pat lobby. Banyak org tanya pasal dia."

Sakina and Ina, is it himmmmmmm?! HAHAHAHA.
Omg I am so delusional right now. Can someone slap me please? HAHAI.

love,
the feeling perasan nadia.

sin-fullybeautiful.

TIREDDDDDDD

Whoa. This week has been a really really tiring week for me. Lack of sleep! I neeeeeeddd sleep so much right now. Okay, let's see what I have been up to. Well, last Saturday, I went to meet Ina and Ariff. Initially, it was supposed to be a meet up for ALL of us. But then, Achap cannot make it and Khalid too. And then Sakina had to go somewhere so left Ariff, Ina & I. We decided on Gloria Jean's at Raffles Shopping Centre, City Hall. Yummy yummy cakes.

Then on Sunday, the cousins went Wild Wild Wet. And Sakina, I saw that B Ular-la! Cuteeee! Hahai. After Wild Wild Wet, we went to crash my Abg Ayen's personal chalet. Heh heh. Ate and watched Crime Watch together. So fun. Hahai! I was superrrr tireddd by then. All that swimming and running and carrying that stupid heavy float. Then work the next day. Great. Ughhhh! I need rest. I need sleeeeeep! I need 8 fucking hours of beauty sleep!!

Okay BYE.

love,
nadia.

sin-fullybeautiful.

EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN

- a severe or incapacitating emotional disorder
- an emotional disorder that leaves you exhausted and unable to work

Just when you thot that everything's gonna be okay, it didn't.
There will be a day when all you wanna do is cry and ask why?
There will be a moment that you just need a shoulder to cry on.

Today, i feel the pain i felt 2 months back.
Today, i lost the the words you once gave to keep me going thru the day.
Today, im feeling so hopeless.
Why?

But, i will make it thru this.
I will be strong once again.

Hugs N Kisses
Lina with Love

='(

sin-fullybeautiful.

Monday, April 21, 2008

SWEAR!!!!

We will stop being a bitch when guys stop being jerks!!! No kidding. You wanna play this game?! Bring it on! I'll play along with you ass!! Im just pissed! LIAR!!!!

Hugs N Kisses,

Lina with Love

sin-fullybeautiful.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

THE WRONG KIND

I can't believe myself saying this but I kinda like working. There's always something to do. I am always busy. And I like it that way. It keeps me occupied, you know. Yesterday was my fourth day there and I am getting the hang of the work. No more mistakes, getting faster doing the work and such. I feel so much confident now. I just love that feeling. Colleagues have been really nice and helpful. You loud, noisy bunch! Especially Hafiz. Always making me laugh and all. My desk is right next to him so he's always disturbing me. But it's all good. At the end of the day, he just wants me to open up and make me feel welcome. Thank you to him and Aslam for showing me around.

I don't mix around with the rest of the clerical officers from other department which all the girls before me mixes around with. I don't go out to lunch and I am always alone during lunch. Therefore they all accused me of being arrogant. But how to mix when I don't fucking know who you people are and where are your department. I don't fucking know anyone there! Sheeshh!! Besides, lunchtime means HOT sun. And I am certainly not a big fan of it. I prefer to stay indoors, thank you very much. I just want some time alone for myself during my lunch break. Is that wrong?

So yea, right now pretty much all the girls there don't like me. Words are spreading that I don't mix around, arrogant and stuck-up. Oh the drama! I know I do look kinda stuck-up. I get that a lot. Even Hafiz said first impression of me was stuck-up! HAHA. But I personally think that those girls are just jealous. HAH! The reason could be that Hafiz has been "promoting" me to the single officers there. Heh heh. And not to mention that I'm always with the guys. Hafiz and gang of course.

Anyways, I met up with Dan last Thursday after work for ice-cream at Gelatissimo. We did a lot of catching up. And thanks eh Dan for showing me where Sky Garden is. HAHA. I am so clueless. Sheesh. I had a good time catching up. Thanks for the treat Dan boy! :)

I don't know why I am always attracting the wrong kind of guys. It's always those bad ones or those attached ones. Those engaged ones, those with girlfriends ones and now to add to the list. MARRIED ONES. Scary k! Thanks to Hafiz for letting me know that he's married. I'll be more careful next time. So yeah Mr DINO-saur, I am NOT interested. I want hot single malay officers. Not married ones. Pfffft!

NAK KENA MANDI BUNGAAAAAA!

love,
nadia

sin-fullybeautiful.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Have you thought of this??

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?

Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or

Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.

Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...

if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decide not 2 become a couple

because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.

You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........

When you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had,

but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...

for fear that the other person does not care as much,or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because,

your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know,

afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump!

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder

what they would have done, or could have had.

What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and

you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

BiTcHiNg OfF,

Sakina

sin-fullybeautiful.

Friday, April 18, 2008

LINA DELILAH

It's been a while since i log in to blog. Im supposed to do my assignment which due today but im stuck! All i did was the cover page, content page, company's background and summary of the report. I still have to do Promotional Programme Situation Analysis, Target Market, Promotional Objectives, IMC Tools, Promotional Schedule, Budget Distribution and Monitoring, evaluation and control. Damn! And i have no idea where and how to start. Ahhh.. forget about it. I hope our plan to ask for extension works. heh!

I miss those days when i was so care-free with nothing to feel hurt about. I guess this time round my heart shattered into thousands of pieces. Know why because all the past heartbreaks have yet to fully recover. But well, i still have Nadia N Sakina, i still do have my boys and i still do have my girls. That's what matters the most!!!

I miss the times when we all worked together. Always being there for each other and we are inseperateable till most people are jealous of us and started to spread rumours. I miss you guys badly. Oh.. including Ariff. Meet up soon!!

Btw Beautifuls,

What do you think of the haircolor below? I thot i wanna do just the same. Blonde and Black den perm it like the picture below, below. No idea how it gonna turn out but what do you all think? Taggiesss please!! heh!

Hugs N Kisses
Lina with Love.

sin-fullybeautiful.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Are you an "angel"??

Last Sunday, I went out with Zed. It wasnt planned actually. He called me and asked,

"Can i bring you out for dinner?"

I was at Sembawang with my mom. So, i told mommy that i am going out with Zed, just for dinner. I send mommy back to Simei cos she wanted to get a new handphone for my youngest sister since she's going to "embark" into Poly-Life?? *Welcome to the world of projects and meeting of the deadlines*

Then i went over to Pasir Ris to pick him up. Since i'm bad with directions, i passed my key to him. So, through out the night, he drove me around. *I feel good....ta daa daa daa daa daa daa....U know that i would..."

You know, you've been driving people around that sometimes u would want others to drive you around. And, amazingly I trust the way he drives. So, he asked whether its alright for us to go watch a movie. I agreed.

We head down to Vivo, and unfortunately the movie that we wanted to catch was way too late. Along the way he asked, "Do you smoke??" I said, "Of course NOT!!I dont DRINK, CLUB or SMOKE."

He turned and looked at me, "Are you an ANGEL???????????"

I just smiled.

We end up having dinner at Secret Recipe. But, i only had strawberry cheesecake while he ate chicken with mushroom sauce and rice. Then, we went up to the open area where we can see the cable cars. Actually, i wanted to take the cable car ride but he suggested to go to Sentosa instead. And again he drove. We were making 9587624310056 turns around the "round-about" just to find the carpark that leads to 'KM8'.

We spend like 20mins there, just walking by the beach. Then he drove himself home?? As in he drives back to his own place. So before we bid our goodbyes, we took a shot and i gave him a lil artwork of mine. I did a collage for him, the size of the frame which is slightly bigger than a drawing block. It was a print out of his pictures that I grabbed from somewhere, i changed it to black and white except for his baby picture. And, he was like

"Hey thanks, this is cute. I really appreciate it." *staring at the frame for a minute*

Thats the least i could do for a friend. It was just a simple collage. Nothing that is like so "WOW!!" Overall, i did enjoy my night out cos of the "free ride" which was like just for a while and yeah it was a simple meet-up but yet FUN. I texted him after reaching home and that was it. S-I-M-P-L-E.

we are the total OPPOSITE

this is nicer eventhough it was more to the rightside

the frame that i did for him

A close-up

BiTcHiNg OfF,
Sakina

sin-fullybeautiful.

ILLEGAL

Work has been okay. So far, so good. Heh. My department is quite small. Only 9 of us including me. All malessssssss except me of course. Nothing out of the ordinary for me since I grew up with boys and stuff. I'm so used to guys surrounding me, I am always "one of them" so at work is no different. So all is good. My colleagues are all nice, friendly people. I get along with them so thank god. I like going to the cafeteria. No no, it's not because of the food there. It's because that's the only place you get to see everyone from every department. People need to eat and drink and they will surely go there to get food, drinks, tidbits, etc. Am I not right? So there's where I get to see all those hot malay officers. HAHAI!!

Best thing about working here is, I get to wear jeans!! Sukeeeeeeee! Haha. Wait, I think the best thing is still those hot malay officers. HAHAHA!

Anyways, these are the pictures from last monday dinner date with Ina at Sakae Sushi. Enjoy!

Who would have thought
That you could hurt me
The way you've done it?
So deliberate, so determined

And since you have been gone
I bite my nails for days and hours
And question my own questions on and on

So tell me now, tell me now
Why you're so far away
When I'm still so close

You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

I tried so hard to be attentive
To all you wanted
Always supportive, always patient
What did I do wrong?
I'm wondering for days and hours
It's clear, it isn't here where you belong

Anyhow, anyhow
I wish you both all the best
I hope you get along

You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

Open heart
Open heart
It should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

-Shakira's Illegal

love,
nadia

sin-fullybeautiful.