Amin called me 2 days ago. In fact, he called everyone. When that happens, we all know his girlfriend will be leaving Singapore soon. So he'll come crawling back to us. Annoying.
Amin: Hello, can I speak to Miss Sombong-Giler-Nak-Mampos?
Me: Ape jer! Kau tu sombong!
Amin: Kau sekarang mana nak rindu aku lagi. Korang-korang ni seme. Aku jugak kena selalu carik korang.
Me: Eh mesti ah. Kau da selalu buih kita. Lagipun, seme busy pe. Bukan kau sorang k.
Amin: Sudahlah! Sekarang seme Ariff, seme Achap. Mana ingat aku lagi.
Me: Whatever eh Amin! Eh next week kau ikut kita eh?
Amin: A ah. Should be okay. Girlfriend aku balik Australia this Friday, so I'm free. (He's such an IDIOT!)
Me: Girlfriend da takde baru nak lepak ngan kita! Babi kau Amin!
Amin: HAHA!
Me: Irritating sak! K la. See you next week. Pape picit.
Amin: Pape picit, pape picit. Picit ape? Tetek kau?
Me: Kau diam bodoh! Bye la!
Amin: HAHAHA! Kk bye Ya.
He is by far the most annoying guy friend ever. EVER!!
But yeah, we are all meeting up next week. I so can't wait. Only Khalid cannot make it since he's busy flying. (He's an air steward for SIA.) I miss my boys alot.
I like the fact that we are all very 'sembarang' with one another. Like using 'Kau, Aku' and such.
At this point, nothing really shock us anymore. They have farted in front of us, talked about their sexual fantasies, tell us if they want to go shit, feed us with their barehands, seen them gobbled their food like they haven't eaten for 10 days (Ladies, remember the ondeh-ondeh incident? haha!) and if we're really tired and there's no pillow, we can just borrow their lap! Or vice-versa. HAHA! Money is also not an issue. We buy things for them, they buy things for us. We treat them, they treat us. We are that comfortable with each other. We're like family. The boys treat us like their younger sisters. They are quite protective towards us too. Maybe it has got to do with the fact that they have no younger siblings or no sisters. I love my boys. And I cannot stand when some dude who just came into my life asked me to throw them away. I can't do that. We're family.
There's alot of work to dooooooooooo these few dayssss. But so far I can still handle it. My AOC has been great :)
Just a 'few' of my files. 
Doing some data entry. Looking at the computer hurts my eyes so bad. I had to squint a lot.
Taking a break from the PC.
Back to the stupid computer.
There's this Chinese guy at work who I thought was cute. We never exchange any words before. Just smile when we bumped into one another at the corridor. Then Hafiz and Aslam had to go and opened their mouth and told him that I thought he was cute. So yesterday when I bumped into him, I was so embarrassed. He smiled and I smiled back. Then he said 'Hi' to me. I gave out a soft 'Hi' back. I turned red! Thanks eh Hafiz and Aslam. Pfffft!
Talking about bumping. Heh. I bumped into Mr. IO! It was like a scene from a movie. Haha.
I was in the lift. He was waiting for the lift at the lobby. We were both standing right in front of the lift door. Then the lift door opened, and there he was with his really hot physique standing right in front of me. He smiled at me. I shyly smiled back and looked down. Then I walked out from the lift while he got in it. Then the lift door closes and there goes my Mr. IO. So drama. HAHAHA.
I'm going out with my mom later. Doing some mother-daughter quality bonding time. Quality time with mom = mom-pays-for-everything day. Haha! Then later in the evening, gonna go catch my 2nd brother play soccer. Some Cisco soccer competition I think. (My brother is a Cisco Officer) I initially forgotten all about it. Luckily brother texted me yesterday.
Brother: R u going to Tampines Safra tomoro? Me got soccer..
Me: Oh ya! Should be. If Don going, then I'm going.
Brother: K. Kul 9pm start. Kalau nak wait for me, 8.15pm pat rumah. We go together.
Me: Oookay!
I wonder if there's any young, cute, single Cisco officers there. Haha. Okie, I got to go get ready to get my free stuff. Haha. Kidding mom. You know I love you. Heeeee.
love,
nadia.
A colleague asked if i have a boyfriend and i said i don't. She said 'insya'allah, kat tempat kerja baru, you will meet someone for you' All i replied her was 'insya'allah, amin.' heh. I have someone in mind. Someone i called Apek whom i used to be so close with. =) This is where our story ends
Last Thursday after work, met my girls up for dinner at Newton. It was my 1st time there.hah! We basically ate alot. 30 sticks of Satay, Ikan Bakar, Chili Crab, Cereal Prawns, Kalian and Fried Buns which cost us only $100 after discounts. heh! Cool-nesss. We ate till nothings left. hahaha. It was just sin-fully delicious. If you guys going to Newton. I would recommend getting the food from this stall. My girlfriends. Ohhh... I was offered a job as a beauty consultant and will be starting work late next month after my Bangkok trip. heh. Wish me luck everyone. Insya'allah i will make it thru. Amin. I just love getting Glooming allowance. =)) Hugs N Kisses, Oh sure, they say they're busy. They say they didn't have even a moment
At work today i wanted to know alot of things. So i decided to have a chat with my colleague. He's very religious. So he told me about alot of things and other colleagues said that we were having syarahan. They even teased me and him saying that we're talking about ehwal perkahwinan and baru nak bermesra. shhheesssshhhhh!
Never lovers, ever friends
Goodbye, let our hearts call it a day
But before you walk away
I sincerely want to say
I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love
Hugs N Kisses,
Lina
I was walking down the streets yesterday afternoon, minding my own business, when I passed a Malay wedding at one of the HDB void decks. I looked at it, more like staring at it blankly then slowly breaking into a smile looking at how happy everybody were at the wedding. And then it shot me. I realised that that might not happen to me. (Turning 23 very soon and never really been in love, I gave up. Besides, I've always wanted to be a young mother!) I gave out a loud sigh and continued walking to my destination.
You know, I don't want to marry someone out of pity, I don't want to marry someone just because he's 'better-than-nothing', I don't want to marry someone just because he already knows my family members, I don't want to marry someone just because I wanted babies, I don't want to marry someone just because my mom likes him, I don't want to marry someone just because we share the same interests, I don't want to marry someone just because he's super rich, etc. (although that last one is quite a catch. Haha. But no.)
I wanted to marry someone who I love. Someone who loves me as much as I love him. Someone who I have no doubt spending the rest of my life with. And the decision we made about being and living together is not because we can't live without one another but because life's just better when we're together.
Okay enough of this whole love crap. Let's see what happened today.
Mr. Undercover's colleague came by to get something from my office. Which means he could be around the office but he didn't come see me. I was feeling a bit 'ugh' for a second. Mr. Undercover hasn't even seen me with my new $150 hairdo! But then I realised it is so not worth my time. So yeah, that 'ugh' feeling lasted for a good 10 minutes.
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don’t know what I was missing or why I ain’t listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again cause of my curiousity
Now that it’s over, what else could it be, he decides to cheat.
I made a promise never to settle
Why didn’t I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around
But I’m not missing you
I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I’m not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because I got life to do
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you go
But this time it’s different I don’t even feel the distance
I’m not missing, I’m not missing you
It’s a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again when I know what the end will be?
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?
I made a promise never to settle
Why didn’t I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around
No I can’t be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can’t keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when it’s right
Bad when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life
.....................
The 'fighter' text messaged me this morning. I thought it was, cute?
"Morning sweetness..weekends are gone and a new week begins..chase the darn monday blues away and do take care cause I care."
Oh oh we might be going for a movie next week! The usual gang. Make it happen guys. It's been too long. So there's gonna be Ariff, Sakina, Ina, Achap, me and hopefully Khalid.
Me: Afternoon darling! Free next week? We're planning on watching a movie together.
Achap: Yes sayang. I would make myself free.
Me: Hee. Okie. See you and the rest soon!
Achap: Can't wait darling.
I sure can't wait to meet them. Too long. Too long.
love,
nadia.
Lina with Love
Okay, here's the thing. "B-fighter" (Sakina, how did we come up with such names for guys anyways? hah!) has been asking me out like more than 3 times now. I had to reject him because I always seems to have some other plans. So Sakina, the next time he asked me out, we'll plan a double date okay? Since he's your squadmate and all, I think it should be fun. And you were the one who introduced us both, so yeah. We get along pretty well now. Though there were a few bumps along the road before. He now texts me everyday and sometimes when he's at work (where he can't bring along any unauthorized things e.g cellphone) he would call me using his office phone. What was pretty impressive was that he remembered my number. Who does that anymore? I don't even remember his number. We have a device called cellphone that can saved numbers. Haha. The only numbers I remember are my house number, Sakina's and Ina's number. Heh.
Bff had to go to some course next month at Civil Service College which included people from my department as well. So she called me while I was at work to ask if Hafiz, Aslam and Erian could go there too. She saw about 4 people from my department (but different unit) on the namelist. So she called me and I passed the phone to Hafiz and Hafiz asked Erian to call those people from the other unit and stuff. It was super kecoh I tell you. Haha. Turns out the class for that particular course was already full.
So now they are planning for some other courses to go together in the near future. I find it cute that I know Sakina's colleague and Sakina know my colleagues. And we get along pretty good.
Work tomorrow. Hooray? I think this job is pretty much the best job (after SEAB) that I ever had. Great colleagues, great superior, the work's okay, allowed to wear jeans, flexible break time and of course, lots of eye candy. LOTS. I hope Mr. IO is coming in tomorrow. So I can bat my eyes at him. HAHAHA. Yeah right. That will never happen. Oh there's another new guy. Quite cute too. Same unit as Mr. IO. Keep the cute guys rolling! Heehee.
Okie, got to go watch Crimewatch. I'll catch all you beautiful people later. Take care and don't do drugs. Haha. But like seriously, stay away from drugs. Oh and low crime doesn't mean no crime.
love,
nadia.
Girl, please."
After reading "He's Just Not That Into You", I felt more...empowered, more in control. It helps you to move on, to let go. To accept the fact that maybe a guy was just not that into you could be difficult but after reading this, it has never been so easy! Like they say, why dwell on something that's just not gonna happen when you can move on to better territory? Why waste your time, right?
It also teaches ladies to have some self-respect for themselves. Like, not to make the first move ever. If a guy likes you enough, he'll make the first move no matter how shy he is. If he's not, he's just not that into you. Don't make the first move, don't call him first, don't ask him out first. Do nothing. Let them do all the work. Remember: Men find it very satisfying to get what they want. So if they really want you, no matter how busy they are, no matter how big their ego is, they will work hard at it and do almost anything just to get you.
So do what ladies really only need to do, dress up, be pretty and let them chase us. Let them do the chasing and we just have fun!
I can't wait to see the movie. (trailer below!)
I will survive
As long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live, I've got all my love to give.
I will survive, I will survive.
It took all the strength I had just not to fall apart.
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry but now I hold my head up high.
And you'll see me with somebody new.
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you.
And so you thought you'd just drop by and you expect me to be free.
But now I'm saving all my lovin' for someone who's lovin' me.
Oh now go. Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
nadia
We're fantastic."
Lina with Love
"Let's start with this statistic:
You are delicious. Be brave, my sweet.
I know you can get lonely.
I know you can crave companionship and love so badly that it physically hurts.
But I truly believe that the only way you can find out that there's something better out there
is to first believe there's something better out there.
I 'll believe it for you until you're ready."
- Greg Behrendt (He's Just Not That Into You)
Today I had dinner with Ina at Sakae Sushi. Just because both of us were craving for hot wasabi. Hahaha. My new favorite item is the fried salmon. One plate of that cost only $2.29. Great deal. And of course, everytime Ina and I go to a Japanese Restaurant, we have to have Cha Soba. Yummy!
CHA SOBA!
FRIED SALMON
I can't keep on waiting for you
I know that you're still hesitating
Don't cry for me 'cause I'll find my way
You'll wake up one day but it'll be too late
Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call baby night and day
I'm fed up, I'm tired of waiting on you
All I'm saying is, Mr. IO can interrogate me anytime! HAHAI.
New "passport" photo!!! HA HA HA!
Anyways, I have hives. What the fuck am I allergic to anyways after all these years?? Fucking itchy and fuuuucccking ugly. Gotten MC for tomorrow. Ahhh cheebye.
love,
nadia.
I've bought myself another perfume and this time it's from JLO. =) I've got the Shower gel, miniature and samples. Just a short update. I went to my lil sis school's family day over the weekend and i decided to relax myself thru ear candling. hah! It was great. After the family day, we went to Bugis and i got myself the high waist shorts. At last!! Thank mom!! It was great having mother, daughters day out. More updates soon. Im kinda lazy to update actually. heh. 
My Lovely perfume. Which is already half empty. Sheesh!
Lovely and Lovely Liquid Satin.
I'm getting Sarah Jessica Parker's Covet next. It smells freaking nice, I had to have it. She's fabulous.
Yesterday I had lunch with Rizal. Met him at Bugis and then walked to Tekka and had thosai! Haha. It was totally random. Then we went to Central Library and I borrowed He's Just Not That Into You - like again. I guess I needed a wake-up call. I borrowed "He's Just Not That Into You - The no-excuses truth to understanding guys" and "He's Just Not That Into You - Your daily wake-up call." I just love the book. Not only because it was from a writer and a consultant of Sex and the City, but also because it was written by both man and woman. So you really get both views.
It was really hard to read. But I guess sometimes you just got to accept the fact no matter how painful it is. We, women, always like to make excuses for those jerks. Like "Oh maybe he just needed a bit more time" or "He's busy" or "He just got out from a really bad relationship." But have we ever thought that maybe he's just not that into us? It's time we should.
A true wake-up call. A real hard knock on the head.
now I saw they weren't mixed messages at all.
I was the one that was mixed up."
"We go out with someone, we get excited about them, and then they do something that mildly disappoints us. Then they keep doing a lot more things that disappoint us. Then we go into hyper-excuse mode for weeks and possibly months, because the last thing we want to think is that this great man that we are so excited about is in the process of turning into a creep. We try to come up with some explanation for why they're behaving that way, any explanation, no matter how ridiculous, than the one explanation that's the truth: He's just not that into me."
"If a dude isn't calling you when he says he will, or making sure you know that he's dating you, then you already have your answer. Stop making excuses for him; his actions are screaming the truth: He's just not that into you."
"If a guy truly likes you, but for personal reasons he needs to take things slow, he will let you know that immediately. He won't keep you guessing, because he'll want to make sure you don't get frustrated and go away."
"He's just not that into you if he's not calling you. Men know how to use the phone."
"So if a guy you're dating doesn't call when he says he's going to, why should that be such a big deal? Because you should be dating a man who's at least as good as his word."
"The next incredible guy we meet with the really good excuse is just another guy who's hurting our feelings."
"If he's not calling you, it's because you are not on his mind."
"You deserve a fucking phone call."
"Cheating is cheating. It doesn't matter whom it was with or how many times it happened."
"Let's call cheating what it is: a complete betrayal of trust."
"This is going to be controversial, but I am going to say it anyway. No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing."
"You already have one asshole. You don't need another."
"Oh sure, they say they're busy. They say that they didn't have even a moment in their insanely busy day to pick up the phone. It was just that crazy. Bullshit. With the advent of cell phones and speed dialing it is almost impossible not to call you. Sometimes I call people from my pants pocket when I don't even mean to. If I were into you, you would be the bright spot in my horribly busy day. Which would be a day that I would never be too busy to call you."
"Busy is another word for "asshole." "Asshole is another word for that guy you're dating."
"If the guy you're dating doesn't seem to be completely into you, or you feel the need to start "figuring him out," please consider the glorious thought that he might just not be into you. And then free yourself to go find the one that is."
So have you ladies found your answer? I know I have. Because no answer is your answer. You know what ladies? Let's just shop. Haha.
After the whole library thing, Rizal went off to meet his girlfriend and I went to meet Ina for dinner. Hei Sushi at Downtown East for us. De-li-cious.
After dinner, we got some chocolate-covered waffles for dessert and walked home. Yes, walked all the way from Pasir Ris Downtown East to Tampines. We're that crazy. 
While we were busy taking pictures, there were like about 2 groups of mat motor who slowed down, smiled and waved at us. Like whaaaaaaat the hell. About 6 bikes. 3 bikes per group. Sempat k drg. Tsktsktsk.
Well, good time. Lots of food and lots of walking. And not to forget, tons of reflections.
love,
nadia
13th July 2008, went over to Huda's for her mini birthday celebration. I was lovely and her mom cooked really really nice food. heh. Happy Belated 21st Darling. =)
Siti Khadijah Seafood. It's delicious and fresh. Me and my girls thot it's really worth it. Try it out. =)
Lina with Love
in their insanely busy day to pick up the phone. It was just that crazy. BULLSHIT!
I have made up my mind. I am taking my heart off my sleeve and replace it with a 'keep out' sign. I think, as a lady, I've done enough. I don't wanna be the one who's doing too much. The rest is really up to you. Thanks for never calling me when you said you would. I might as well give some other dude a chance since you're not taking yours, am I right? Pfffft.
Thanks to you, I totally went shopping today, spent a hundred over dollars (when I know I shouldn't) and ate sinfully high-calorie ice-cream. I need to stop turning to shopping and spending my money every time I'm pissed! But I seriously can't help it. Somehow spending money makes it all better.
Thank you for making my mind up today Mr. Undercover. You win, congratulations. I don't wanna play any of this foolish game no more.
Oh and Happy 28th Birthday.
love
nadia.
I keep on wondering if you was even feeling me,
I keep on wondering if this was even meant to be
Tell me imma waste of time, boy you showing me no sign,
Is it cuz u on ya grind, cuz you're always on my mind
I keep on wondering if everything you said was true
I keep on wondering if you were really coming through
Now here I go again blowing you up,
And my girlfriends keep telling me
I'm doing too much
I'm out with my girls tryna have a good time
And you know I'm looking fly tryna meet sum other guys
But it gets hard sometimes cuz there ain't no one just like you
I try my best but I can't shake this thing u got me going through
All I can picture is the color of your eyes,
and the way u make me smile, I ain't felt this in a while,
But I came to a conclusion that this is pure illusion
Chaos and confusion but I'm not gonna let it ruin
The way I feel about myself cuz I got self-esteem,
sometimes I wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy"
Okay, there's 3 things that I would like to share.
First up. Sakina bought me this cute mirror. Since she knew I love mirrors and pretty things, she bought me this. It's a mirror and it's pretty. Hah! See, even the paper bag is cute!
OMG! OMG! THE PUSSYCAT DOLLS ARE COMING TO SINGAPORE FOR SINGFEST!!!
Which means SHE's gonna be here too!
Sayin what you goin' do to me
BUT I AIN'T SEEN NOTHING
I'm about to blow, I don't think you know"
love,
nadia
